Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Dear FutureMe,

I'm in love with someone. But it seems that nobody will love me back.


I hate myself.


I'm so stupid. I hide my feelings to everyone. I even hide them to myself.

I really can't stop thinking on how will I stop this. It's me. And always be me. But sometimes, the feelings get a liitle more heavy and all I want to do is to tell the person I love him but then again, I step backward and hide it all until it all fades away.

It hurts. I can't help it. But this is the character I've made for the people around me to know. I can't change the first 16 years of my life. I can't go back.

I'm slipping away from reality now because I can't help myself but to think these things over. It really hurts me.



I hope that someday I will have the courage to stand up for myself and my taken side.


I hope that I will change.


left at 3:35 AM

//THE PIDDLING PROFILE

steph-e
July 19, 1992
^__^
UPM
MSHS
ABES
+Newton Neurotics+
+Burbank Bumblebees+
+Thales Tail less??+
+Padolina Pops!+
+Block 11+
+BS Biochemistry+

Freshie Ngayon

note: the word 'piddling' here means insignificant.

//THE WISHY-WASHY WISHLIST

wishes:

*to have fair skin
*to have 100 more wishes! ^__^
*that everything I love will last forever
*to have MORE gadgets
*to be a forensic patholigist/cardiologist
*to be a chemist at makagawa ng shabu the natural way
*makapasa sa scholarship ng Merck & Co. Inc.
*to be a mathematician

note: the word 'wishy-washy' here means weak, thin, feeble- another fancy word for weak.


//THE LATEST LINKS

 {/Kalen}
{/Pwetut}
{/Katz}
{/JanPol}
{/Maki}
{/Yani}
{/My DevArt... ^__^}
{/Gidget! Haha...^__^}
{/ronaldallanPAPAhabon}
{/Daddy}

note: everybody knows the word 'latest.'


//THE TEDIOUS TAGBOARD



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note: 'tedious' means boring.


//THE ACHING ARCHIVES

August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009

note: 'aching' here means I don't want to remember the past
//THE CLOUDY CREDITS


Thank you.