What can I say?
One hell of a week.
Failed math17. Failed CS(not sure). Failed histo (not sure also). Failed to listen to my conscience.
I had failed in many things lately.
I wish i had the courage to stand up and fight for my dreams but the courage melted away as i step on every wrong pathway. I know i was wrong on many things but i kept on doing it. It became a habit. A kind of habit that can ruin lives, especially my life.
I'm a self-confessed pessimist, lazy, blood-sucking person. A parasitic mammal that cant live without the prescence of a host.
Fuck life. I want to experience death. If life comes once, death also comes once. Haha.
Never mind.
I have an assignment to do but I think its better to put my thoughts in this piece of crap.
Bullshit.
Do you think Im happy with my life? That positive thinking can help me get through my dark past. I dont think so. A pessimist will always be a pessimist.
You dont agree with me? Thats fine. We have our own ideas on which we think are better for us.
You cannot dictate any person what she/he should do. You can just lead them to the right path. Its their choice if they want to listen.
Well, I dont listen that much. Im so bad, seriously. I dont appreciate what people are doing to help me. Haha. Piece of shit.
Fuck this boring life. I want adventure. I want a roller coaster life. I want to break the rules and be free. I want to be different. I dont want to go with the flow. Against the current may be a source of joy and peacefulness.
If you think that something is right for you, then go for it. You dont need others to help you even though seldomly you need them too.
If someone is trying to block your path and isnt going to leave, go another path.
Theres no such thing as fate. We're just MAKING a make believe fate. We're just setting our goals and find some ways to achieve it.
Do I make a point?
Hope I made one.
Well, I think its time for me to do my fucking homework.
Have a good fucking night.
